Trying

"Well, they can't fault you for TRYING!"

They can, and they will.
Without hesitation,
and without warning.
You're spinning out in a mad rush to avoid the wall you smash every time,
Every time they don't tell you which direction to take,
because you're supposed to know, you know,
You end up TRYING them all.
They found out too late that you're not reading the same map,
so,
They will deconstruct the engine you built to reach the end of your road...TRYING.
Disassemble the pipes,
Snuff all the sparks,
Siphon the last drop of fuel from your reservoir.
Because what they don't know,
or what they don't want to see,
is that TRYING is who you are.

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